ugh, a boring saturday...

that's no fun...

it's 12:27, i just woke up about an hour ago, and i'm sitting at the computer writing thank you cards... thinking about what i'm going to do later. and all i could think of is, pool. ugh. how boring is that? all i ever do i sit by the pool, what the heck is wrong with me! i need to find something else to do... altho sitting by the pool is relaxing and poolside naps are the best. but seriously, everyday at the pool is a bit excessive... i wish august 28th would get here faster! i'm getting bored and i didn't want this to be a boring summer... i need it to be fun and i need to spend the most of it with my friends because i wont see them for a whole YEAR! and i'm gonna miss them like crazy! well i guess i should also spend some time with my family but with Dad in Australia, Tiffany and Chris leaving for Costa Rica soon, and Mom working all the time, i seem to be left at home, ALONE... wow.

writing Thank you cards is not holding my attention very well and i'm very bored...

you may ask where is Sarah today? uhh. well, she is at her house doing government homework and on her new wii fit getting a workout. I would say invite the McIntyre family to the pool but since the kids got grounded from all that is fun, that would include the pool, and the park, and anything else fun. DUH. and even tho mom is not working today it seems to be even more boring because now i actually have to do stuff around the house instead of 'wake up, put swim suit on, and go to the pool.'

awesome.

well, since mom just looked at me like i was crazy and we are just now eating "breakfast" and i should be writing my thank you cards because i'm supposed to have them all done by Wednesday before we leave for PA. which doesn't sound like it should be a problem but since i get distracted and bored easily i've only got 3 done in an hour. yeah. i'm a genius!

oh joy!

well, this has sustained my boredom long enough... enjoy!

oh and the bell's palsy is clearing up nicely, and since i am using those muscles more and more everyday. everyday is increasingly more painful.

yay.

(can't you just taste the sarcasm?)

eh... what a week.

it has been some week! Monday i felt strange, i just didn't feel like myself. but i went through the day without complaining. I went out to a movie with my friends and at dinner after the movie i KNEW something wasn't right! We came back to my house and i talked to my mom and as soon as she saw me try to smile, she sat up and said "You have bell's palsy" then laid back down to go to sleep. altho 5 minutes later mom and dad were both out of bed and doing "research" on what doctor to take me to first thing in the morning. it didn't help when mom read off all the bad things that could happen, like it could never go away, or some symptoms may decrease but you could have permanent nerve damage. (for those of you who do not know what Bell's Palsy is: Bell's Palsy is partial paralysis of the facial nerves, causing only one side to be paralyzed. Due to the fact that the nerves are not functioning, it is not painful. The eye, however, may become dry due to the possible inability to close the eyelid.) I am luck, my eye will close but will not shut tightly. so it does become dried out. when i smile only half my face lights up, this is what i'm most disappointed about, for those of you who know me will know that i LOVE to smile, *smilling's my favorite*, (just a little movie quote for ya!) anyways, it's the right side of my face that is paralyzed and with that comes blurry vision, even with glasses, an uneven smile, and some hearing loss. Bleh. doesn't seem good. but the doctor's believe that this could be cause by a virus, so they gave me some meds to take. and i pray they work and that this is not a permanent thing!

My family has been supportive, altho at times taking the joking to an extreme. They know it's hard for me to deal with this, being a teenager and every teenager gets judged as soon as he or she walks out he/she's door. they make me laugh about it and joke, at times i laugh just so there isn't a waterfall in public.

I find this is the case with most insecurities of mine, i joke about them, just so everyone thinks i'm okay with them, when in reality it kills me. but anyways, so for the past 3 days i've been resting which includes sitting at home, reading, watching movies. and i did get to go to stone mountain Wednesday night! that was fun!

I would like to thank Sarah, she is my best friend and has been super supportive. She knows when to just sit there and hold my hand and let me cry about it, but then again she knows when we can laugh about it without going to far! i love her with all my heart and wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. i wouldn't know how to get through this without her!

without any more boredom... i'll let you get back to whatever you are supposed to be doing.

because we all know you are reading this either because you are bored and have nothing else to do, or you are supposed to be doing something but you're procrastinating!

love always,
Taylor