happiness...

“Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence” --Aristotle

Well, i know some people read my last blog entry and were worried about me. I appreciate all the love and support i have had from people back home. Thank you for your prayers and uplifting spirits, when we talk! In the three weeks i have been here i have learned things about myself that I am not sure i would have known without moving here. One of them being that, I am a "home-body", you see, when i was little i used to think i would meet my "prince charming" get married and get the heck out of Georgia i couldn't stand being in Georgia, i've never known why but i think i just needed a chance to get out before i could realize that the only place i really want to be is near my family and the ones i love. There is no where else i'd rather be, which brings me to my next point: Happiness, which is the title of this blog, as the quote by Aristotle says "Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life.." and i honestly believe that. Being happy is what makes you, you. If you aren't happy with what you're doing or where you're at, then nothing will ever feel "in place". You will always feel "lost" or "lonely" nothing will ever be good enough, no matter how hard you try. So, that being said, i am not happy, and do not think that i can achieve happiness here in Germany. My next point would be, BE YOURSELF, be yourself in everything you do, if you don't feel like you can be yourself because you are afraid of what people will think, then you aren't in the right place in your life. While here in Germany, i have become a quite, reserved, shy girl, and for those of you who honestly KNOW me that's not me at all. I cannot be "TAYLOR" here and i need to be somewhere where "TAYLOR" can come out and i need to be around people who wont have a problem with that. I have realized that i have let some friends slide through fingers, and it's time that change. It's not everyday you can find people who will love you, for you and appreciate you, for you.

Some may say "you didn't give it enough time" or "you gave up", i don't feel like these statements are true, i have tried to find some sense of "home" here. The famous saying says "Home is where you hang your heart", well my "heart" is in Georgia with my family and friends, i don't believe i can make this my home anymore than a horse can live in a dog house. I am glad that i could have this experience and i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. But it's time to come home, and start being myself again. I don't know my plans for the future, i do know that i will be looking for a job, pulling my own weight around the house and be thankful and gracious for everything my parents have done, are doing, and will do for me. They are the reason for my existence, (as much as none of us want to think about that) and for that we have to give them credit.

thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you, again, for all your support.

good days & bad days

I'm settling in very nicely. The first few days were the hardest because the second day i was here they had a break-in, and the thief stole 3 laptops in the office i was supposed to use. I also didn't have any locks on my doors yet and it just made me miss home and feel unprotected. We recently bought me a new lock for my door, and today (Wed, september 9, 09) i got an internet hook-up in my room. I was feeling very uncomfortable having to go upstairs into the office area where there had been a break-in to get on my computer and talk to my parents and friends. But now it will be much better! i can sit on my couch and be comfortable!

so far we have just been around town and we went to the world's largest cuckoo clock! It was very cool! but the cuckoo was a little disappointing for such a big bird/ clock the cuckoo was not very loud. lol and i am learning new words everyday! My class starts on the 21st of september, and hopefully i will be able to speak some German before mom and dad come so i can show them around, as long as i know where i am going. lol

there are good days and bad days, when it comes to missing

home. but i am looking forward to the good days to come. Next week i will be able to go to the stables and ride a horse, of course i will have to learn how to ride english instead of western, but it will be okay! The stable belong to Britta's friend and she gives lessons to some girls my age and hopefully they will speak english so i can make some friends! And there is an International Horse Show next week Thursday-Sunday and Britta says we will try to go to it, because Henry LOVES animals he will also enjoy it just as much as me!

well, that's it for now. Love you and miss you all very much!

arrived, safe and sound.

well, it's September 1st and i arrived in Zurich today at 11:30. it was a crazy night on the plane then an hour lay over in Paris, where is was raining like crazy. We still took off right on time, with lots of turbulance that scared the crap out of me. it feels like no one speak English, even tho i know Britta does it's just crazy because she talks to Henry in German and i have no clue what they are saying. I miss home, and everyone at home. But i know this will take some time to get used to. I don't have wifi in my room so i have to sit in the office and have a direct hook-up thing. it's kinda annoying because i want to go lay on my bed and watch a movie. but oh well, maybe i will talk to Britta about getting a hook-up in my room. so i don't have to walk up the stairs to get to the office. She let me call my mom today on the work phone, and gave me some special number so it doesn't cost alot. we talked for a while and it made me sad, and i also called daddy. He is trying to get me to put on a "happy" face. i'm happy to be here and to have this experience but i miss home already. Hopefully it will get better and i will meet some people who speak english. My language class doesn't start until the 21st of September and that feels like forever away! I hope i meet people my age in the class! Well, it's 10 pm here and 4 pm at home, mom and dad should both be getting off work and hopefully mom will get on the computer so i can talk to her. i think i'm done for now. there will be more later when there is more to talk about..

goodnight.