eh... what a week.

it has been some week! Monday i felt strange, i just didn't feel like myself. but i went through the day without complaining. I went out to a movie with my friends and at dinner after the movie i KNEW something wasn't right! We came back to my house and i talked to my mom and as soon as she saw me try to smile, she sat up and said "You have bell's palsy" then laid back down to go to sleep. altho 5 minutes later mom and dad were both out of bed and doing "research" on what doctor to take me to first thing in the morning. it didn't help when mom read off all the bad things that could happen, like it could never go away, or some symptoms may decrease but you could have permanent nerve damage. (for those of you who do not know what Bell's Palsy is: Bell's Palsy is partial paralysis of the facial nerves, causing only one side to be paralyzed. Due to the fact that the nerves are not functioning, it is not painful. The eye, however, may become dry due to the possible inability to close the eyelid.) I am luck, my eye will close but will not shut tightly. so it does become dried out. when i smile only half my face lights up, this is what i'm most disappointed about, for those of you who know me will know that i LOVE to smile, *smilling's my favorite*, (just a little movie quote for ya!) anyways, it's the right side of my face that is paralyzed and with that comes blurry vision, even with glasses, an uneven smile, and some hearing loss. Bleh. doesn't seem good. but the doctor's believe that this could be cause by a virus, so they gave me some meds to take. and i pray they work and that this is not a permanent thing!

My family has been supportive, altho at times taking the joking to an extreme. They know it's hard for me to deal with this, being a teenager and every teenager gets judged as soon as he or she walks out he/she's door. they make me laugh about it and joke, at times i laugh just so there isn't a waterfall in public.

I find this is the case with most insecurities of mine, i joke about them, just so everyone thinks i'm okay with them, when in reality it kills me. but anyways, so for the past 3 days i've been resting which includes sitting at home, reading, watching movies. and i did get to go to stone mountain Wednesday night! that was fun!

I would like to thank Sarah, she is my best friend and has been super supportive. She knows when to just sit there and hold my hand and let me cry about it, but then again she knows when we can laugh about it without going to far! i love her with all my heart and wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. i wouldn't know how to get through this without her!

without any more boredom... i'll let you get back to whatever you are supposed to be doing.

because we all know you are reading this either because you are bored and have nothing else to do, or you are supposed to be doing something but you're procrastinating!

love always,
Taylor