Well, i know some people read my last blog entry and were worried about me. I appreciate all the love and support i have had from people back home. Thank you for your prayers and uplifting spirits, when we talk! In the three weeks i have been here i have learned things about myself that I am not sure i would have known without moving here. One of them being that, I am a "home-body", you see, when i was little i used to think i would meet my "prince charming" get married and get the heck out of Georgia i couldn't stand being in Georgia, i've never known why but i think i just needed a chance to get out before i could realize that the only place i really want to be is near my family and the ones i love. There is no where else i'd rather be, which brings me to my next point: Happiness, which is the title of this blog, as the quote by Aristotle says "Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life.." and i honestly believe that. Being happy is what makes you, you. If you aren't happy with what you're doing or where you're at, then nothing will ever feel "in place". You will always feel "lost" or "lonely" nothing will ever be good enough, no matter how hard you try. So, that being said, i am not happy, and do not think that i can achieve happiness here in Germany. My next point would be, BE YOURSELF, be yourself in everything you do, if you don't feel like you can be yourself because you are afraid of what people will think, then you aren't in the right place in your life. While here in Germany, i have become a quite, reserved, shy girl, and for those of you who honestly KNOW me that's not me at all. I cannot be "TAYLOR" here and i need to be somewhere where "TAYLOR" can come out and i need to be around people who wont have a problem with that. I have realized that i have let some friends slide through fingers, and it's time that change. It's not everyday you can find people who will love you, for you and appreciate you, for you.
Some may say "you didn't give it enough time" or "you gave up", i don't feel like these statements are true, i have tried to find some sense of "home" here. The famous saying says "Home is where you hang your heart", well my "heart" is in Georgia with my family and friends, i don't believe i can make this my home anymore than a horse can live in a dog house. I am glad that i could have this experience and i wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. But it's time to come home, and start being myself again. I don't know my plans for the future, i do know that i will be looking for a job, pulling my own weight around the house and be thankful and gracious for everything my parents have done, are doing, and will do for me. They are the reason for my existence, (as much as none of us want to think about that) and for that we have to give them credit.
thank you for taking the time to read this, and thank you, again, for all your support.
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